Bismillah.
Been looking forward for this trip. Not sure whether I am excited or nervous. But yeah. This is the day I have been looking forward to! Hehe
Tapi macam biasalah when it comes to packing. Blergh taksuka. I have always had this dilemma, to bring this or that, do I need it when I am away and so on.... And it always occurs to me that I think I need all those things. Padahal it was not necessary for the trip. Tapi sekadar nak puaskan hati so bawak jelah. Pastu merungut beg banyak, berat T.T
The saddest part is when you actually didn't use them during the trip. Saja menambahkan beban yang ada. Thats one thing. Pastu when you need to rush, you cant really run sebab berat! Indeed, it slows your move. Fewh. Luckily I have never missed any train or bus because of that (pasal x alert pernah je and trauma since then) tapi yang pasti tercungap-cungap lah lol.
Beban tu memang melambatkan.
Sama macam perjalanan menuju syurga. Manusia ni selalu rasa nak pikul semua sekali gus, Islam pikul Jahiliah pun pikul. Memang berat lah kan. Memang lambat lah kan nak move on ke Syurga. Huhu. The saddest part is when Jahiliah tu pulak yang menarik2 kita supaya stop. Sadis.
Untuk melepaskan, sakit. Sangat sakit. Aku tahu rasa itu. Tapi hanya dengan sakit itu kita akan merasakan nikmat hidup yang sebenar. Nikmat bebas yang sebenar. Dan specialnya nikmat itu sehingga tidak mampu diungkapkan dengan kata-kata. Hanya kau sahaja yang tahu rasa itu. And how I miss the feeling :')
Doakan supaya terus menguat. InshaAllah!
Manchester, UK 19/12/2016
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