Fast forward 7 months later, I finally passed my training year. Alhamdulillah on 26th July, I completed my training and received a good news for the registration exam. I wouldn't take a single claim saying that it was my effort. It was definitely the prayers of the people around me especially my mom and dad and my akhwat! I would say it was the craziest year of my life (at least for now), working and studying wasnt a piece of cake! It was exhausting and draining. It was a year full of crying and taught me most about anger, emotion management. It taught me how to be an adult 101. I wont say that I came out of it become a know-it-all-adult. Im still figuring out my ways. But Alhamdulilah Thumma Alhamdulillah for all the blessings that He bestowed upon me. I never realised I actually have been blessed with a good surrounding and people. As compared to others, I have an understanding tutor who helped and listened to my struggle at work, a lovely and supportive colleagues who made it a lot easier for me to initially adapt and made it feels like home and also last but not least, the strongest backbones who never tired to listen to me (or they were actually tired but never really showed it :D); my housemates and my akhawat in Nottingham, Ireland and Malaysia (of course!) Allah made our path crossed for a reason, as for me, they are one of the greatest blessings for me while I am miles away from my loved ones. I didnt really enjoy living in the UK but they made it bearable and now I think Im gonna miss UK soon!! (Im going home in couple of days for good!)
UK has been great. I cherish the past 3 years full with ups and downs. I believed it was part of growing up and will continue be like that. UK has been a fantasy, it wasn't that difficult to survive here except from that you are far away from family. Every thing is a lot simpler and easier here. It was just about me and my work and my study. I dont have any other commitment yet. It will not be the same when Im back in Malaysia. I dont know what to really expect. As today is Eid Adha, I hope my heart is big enough to make whatever sacrifices I will have to make to survive in Malaysia. By survive, it does not specifically focusing on the financial aspect, its more than that. I hope I can survive the feeling of 'I need to be rich', 'I need to get that high end handbags', 'I want to travel the world with the money I earn' etc. The temptation is real, I have tasted a bit of it here which is one of the reason I want to go home as I know I cant survive the temptation any longer. I really pray that I will work not to chase whats in this world. I want to work solely to support my core business and the ummah. Now, I want to focus more on "tempa hati" to become as harsh and hard to resist the world's temptation but soft enough to touch people's heart and cry in front of Allah.
Till then UK! Hope to see you again :)
Bismillah on embarking a new journey dear self!
