Moving on...
From something that I held very dearly for years. Something that I've been keeping to myself and it took years for me to open up to my closed ones. Haha its funny, this feeling. I feel embarrassed writing this but I want to commemorate later in the future. I don't blame the feeling or the person whos causing this feeling. Its a blessing from Allah.
I find it difficult to move on. God knows why. Alhamdulillah that I found Allah and tarbiyyah. It taught me how to channel this feeling that I have. How to not let it overcome me. But Allah the all knowing. He knows my biggest weakness and He kept on testing me to help me surpass the feeling. Sometimes no matter how hard I tried, the feeling overcame me. I lived in the memories as though I dont want to let it go.
But I think, its time, its time to put an end to this. Maybe this is the thing that always hold me back. My attachment, this feeling. I need to detach. I need to let it go. And maybe this is a means of love from Allah. At the moment I am very confident that I would get what I want, Allah shows the other way around. I did question, why Allah? Can't You just let it happen? Now? Yet again, HE IS THE ALL KNOWING.
Maybe the person isnt the one, maybe its not time yet, maybe its you, that arent ready yet. One thing for sure. Its not your job to think about this.
Soon we will enter the month of Zulhijjah. A month of sacrifice. Maybe this is the best time to sacrifice your feeling. Let it go and attach to Allah ONLY! And worry not my dear, if it meant to be it meant to be :)